In such days as these,

i'm thankful for the Monday time off i had; an extension to easter friday...
I caught Horton! and spent quality quality time..

and of cos, superly overly thankful for Hansel..
A Gift of God.

Thank you Jesus.



Lord of All
Shout praises to the holy One
God makes us strong we'll see His will be done
From the highest place
He came to save us

We stand in the power of His name
salvation's work in our lives proclaim
living from the kingdom of hope within us.

Bridge 1:
shine Your light, be that city of light.

Chorus:
We're gonna shout out loud, its time to let it out
It's your life in me for all to see.'
Cause our God reigns always till the end of days
We're gonna stand strong, stand tall
'Cause Jesus Christ is Lord of all.

Verse 2:
God colors flowing through my life
I'm not the same now my heart desires
To see the whole world come to know You

Bridge 2:
I'll shine my light, be that city of light

chorus
Shout, shout we're gonna let it out
Shout, shout we're gonna let it out
shout, shout we're gonna shout
Jesus is Lord.

Silence is Golden.

I'd like to think that that really works for me.

Scented Candles and Incense Sticks

I'm almost choking . Yet strangely also,.. i'm enjoying the warmth and the lightly scented room.

It's funny, but I actually think everything that's happened has been positive for me.
It made me realise the patience i never imagined i could give, the sensitivity towards the other party, managing others' expectations, managing my reactions (to not fly off the handle at any little thing)......... and lastly.. a change in perspective.

Suffice to say it wasnt a fantastic night yesterday.
Suffice to say tho. I am a stayer. but the limit was well and passed.

Suffice to say Who has me, but Jesus.. who truely knows.



(all hate cannot be found; it refuses to be.
Whatever for? I am only thankful.
If you ask for patience, does God give you patience or put u in situations to develop patience?
The latter seems to work for me. and i cant agree more how a better person it has made me to be.)

So who knows

When i came back home, all that matters is how to have a better part of a night.

so i wont mention who pissed me off at work today (i am on a high; i am having my P.!)


5 things i miss when i'm at work

- Having the Internet .

- Walking around the house in PJs

- Playing Wii Rabbid and proving my worth at Stage 6! (i lurve spider rabbid)

- A lie in..... shrugging off all worries and sleeping till noon. No one home to bug me..

- SHOPPING. MOVIES. IN-HOUSE MOVIES (read: DVDs!)


5 things i do not miss on a 12-Mar-08 Wednesday night

- Work, emails, blackberry, Dell notebook.... You get the drift

- ZOUK . HAHAHHA

- Alcohol, inebriated people, vomit pools, over-sweaty young chaps and chapesses on the dance floor, late nights... basically,....... zouk/ any clubs deem fit.

- Midweek-save-me-work-crisis. I do not have a CRISIS anymore. :)))

- Sleeping late. Figuring i cant finish what i want to tonight. It's 13-Mar-08 already.

Hi Stevenn,

haha.
i know. it sounds funny to be talking to u (via blog!).

but i'm thinking of u buds! (i call steven BUDS, he calls me PADS. I'm serious)

It occurred to me the posts i post, the pictures i upload,.. that buds reads them, sees them.
He makes the effort to find out about my life, drops me an email (and doesnt reply), chats me up on msn (and we both dont reply), promises to meet at zouk (but i dont show up..) ETC .

i remember the first time i met him at zouk. My insurance exams and him, a banker.. quickly gave us a conversational springboard even though HE WAS DRUNK (to date he still refuses to admit it).
I liked him immediately. No, not the like-love. I was just surprised at how easy we both hit it off.
To be honest, we dont hang out or anything.
Lunch? Nope.
Occasional dinner? Nope.
I havent so much as even seen him in broad daylight.

We only text, email, msn --- all poor approximations of communication actually.

so WHY do i bother with such a friend?

Because when i was down in the pits of the nadir, when i was crying (counting, i've called him Crying more than i did Not Crying).. Buds talks to me. he doesnt just talk. he practically also yells and screams at me.
He does that because he wants the best for me and thinks i dont. (Weird.)
He does that and makes me cry even more.. he drives down to my place, sits me at the Maple Park and starts making me cry again. Then drives me to his place, sits me at his Olympic-sized swimming pool and starts making me cry again.
i keep crying until i understood what he meant.

i didnt sleep that morning.

thanks buds, for being who u are. i honestly couldnt buy a better chap. HEEHEE
and deep down i know u'll always be here for me :)
(really u would. u're just a stone's throw away LOL)

Honey Stars and Milk

Just got back from the Boyfriend's.
Dinner was a simple fare but again, too awesome.. all for that it was homecooked and very tastilycooked. Sigh . I should be inspired to cook again.
Actually i am.

I wish i could tell u more about work, everything about work, but i cant. and when i cant, when i get cautious about what i blog (of work and what happens AT WORK), i omit alot of stuff. and nothing. will. make. sense.
(Subtlety is not my strength.)

Just know, for stress relief. . i ate HoneyStars.

On a side note, i caught the movie premiere of SLAM last night with my sissyboo Deedee.
My sister works for a media company; a Singapore Basketball magazine to be exact.
Thus the free tix and mind u, it was a World Premiere... Yes.
My first to a Movie Premiere. of the WORLD. Never mind that the cast are from Beijing China, never mind that they speak perfect chinese....
It is a great movie!! I promise.


I am thinking of signing up gym for
1) One Raffles Quay, Capital Tower, 1 George (Fitness First).. all intimately located near my workplace. WALKING DISTANCE!!

2) I'm aching. My back, my neck and now.. my legs.

3) If i go to the gym everyday, i'll hit the sack before 12 midnight. I'll be really dog-tired. Which makes good; it is the unspoken logic to sleeping early, waking early. :))

Aah.
I went 1 George with JKN a few weeks ago. BOY, he was like the PT, i was like,.. i dont know. a student going for PE?
I did this stepping side twist thing. (See, i dont even know the name to it),. anyway, it is completely awful and i hate it. Hate hate hate it.
I was aching 10 mins after. SO FAST!.
It is a devil machine and it wants me dead.
I turned to see the Boyfriend happily doing weights. His muscles. were..Gulp. ok,. I didnt know they were big.

I traded for the thread mill.. and smile...... This is so much better. I kept at it for the longest time,.. and well, kinda. maybe.. Ya. i think i kept going back to it. The only thing i'd know to do right. *Smirk.
Bench press, whatever press.. i cant do. Weights, i dont want to do.
Suffice to say i am not fit to hold the man's towel. HAHAHAHA

Glad to say tho, i couldnt finish dinner thereafter. and for the first time, i crashed EARLY.

SURPRISE, SURPRISE

Blogger photos are working again.
what is their problem, really.

Enjoy, the disposable camero shots.
i love them because of the colours..... u neednt edit any.

Hi, if you're still here gagging for content. I have it here today.

I thought JKN's laptop wigged out.
I cant seem to upload any photos too! Omg!
It shows:

"We're sorry, but we were unable to complete your request. The following errors were found: blogID: Required field must not be blank."

Either that or:

"Server Error The server encountered a temporary error and could not complete your request. Please try again in 30 seconds. "

It DOES NOT work even after 30 seconds, so i give up.

There are a bunch of photos i have yet to post----- those from the disposable camera.
Brill shots; much more brillant than those taken by a digital camera sometimes...

Since so with the other uploaded photos one entry ago, i shall give you the skinny on what happened over the month (where i so forgot i had a blog.) Goodness me.


The February/ March Inventory:

Apart from CNY, which really got me beaming (not just the $$$ but the holidays), i caught more movies than i had intended to, which totally gets me off. i get enamoured of romance/ action movies so much, i should consider marrying a movie star/ director.
And i can watch dvds alone. In theory JKN says we watch DVDs together... but sleep takes him away except for when he's really intrigued by the movie, so it's really just a 1-man show. or 1-female watching the show.. HAHA.
but the LCD TV is king sized and good; plus i have the company of my fave sour cream and onion chips..
I can just about deal.

Bintan was the next best thing that happened to me in the month of Feb.
We travelled on 12-Feb, with no intention to coincide with Valentines Day. JKN's leave was just and had to be planned as that. Much concerns were raised and brought upon, but who doesn’t go through that?
Is that a good or bad thing? I dont know. We've had enough considerations and actually, i dont really care anymore.
We booked the tickets on 11-Feb.. yes. How eleventh hour. But how fun is that also. It's been a dog's age since i did something spontaneous and boy do i love it!
Receiving pink roses (Although not Hot Pink. Tell my partner there are many shades of pink please) on the day of arrival to Singers 14 Feb practically had me flew to the sky.
How can i complain.

I've never missed my best friend this much this month, all years add together.
Yes, she's the one you see on channel 5 The Wedding Affair trailer; airing 13-Mar. I wont dish on the details; catch the juicy stuff yourself. :))
She is the awesome.

I have stopped using the words "fuck" and "shit".
I know. They're just words. No need to get my knickers in a twist.
But how these words have lost their power to offend...
After a little reprimand and concerning high sign from my little hero, i began to wonder the words i so often use and of context i have so little regard for. WHY?
I know they are not real insults to anyone; or for being who i am... but. I only use them to give vent. So, why. Come on, quit it already.
Few weeks ago I heard this really sweet female friend of mine go, "FUCK!" She was obviously annoyed. Gawd. It sounded Really Ugly.

I'm using "Cripes" and "Shoots" now.

Thats all for the inventory. Aah.

It's kinda late and i'm just waiting for the Boyfriend to finish updating his computer.
If anything, i hate IT Rubbish. and i have him to thank for fixing up my speakers in a mere 5 seconds... imagine no music on my desktop for 3 freaking years. Thats what.
Genius! Praise God!!

I had a fantastic day today, whichever way we'd thought come.
Went to a driving range today; figured the amount of money i'll actually spend on Golf........stared at the pink golf clubs and thought. well. um. they be worth it.
Remember to ask Mat about the golf club webbie and lessonssssss.

SO MUCH TO SAY

here i am online.. at JKN's homiee, hoping to upload the photos i promise myself to,.. for the third time.
i'll pass. Post the photos back soon.

Gawd.

Bless this LAPTOP, JESUS!!


It's a new entry today i decide.

we woke up late to a sweet breakfast; a spread of rice, beans, fishcake, fish and chickie wings.. (which i cant finish but am full of appreciation for). Yum.
You may be under the impression that i'm one hard-to-please person, all shopping and movies but as of always,... i cant be bothered how everyone else thinks.. and as of last night, i'm officially all gooey over the Wii Rabbid game.
It is gawdddingly so hilarious. a cheap laugh really makes me happy.

we have some errands to run in a wee while which cancels church service today. i was a pouted sad at first but nothing a mini praise and worship im having here and the presence of King J couldnt take care of.
JKN's really busy fixing things up in another room. i dont usually like talking about my boyfriend especially so in a blog (i dont know how private this blog is anymore... am thinking of closing it and having it elsewhere), but unexpectedly, i do today. i feel filled. i am gagging for more writing.
so my boyfriend's busy today. and somehow between the nice-and-rough, he gave me a quick kiss this morning and apologised we couldnt make it for church.
It does matter (of cos it does!) that i felt the whole thing was so sweet i could do a little wii rabbid dance in the kitchen.

rest assured guys, that i'm well, well looked after. although my patience is testeddd with JKN sometimes, i am enjoying every minute of it. Jesus bless this.

I have so much more to write, but he's bathed, changed and good to go now.
abit of an anti-clamax.... but what to do?

WAIT, WHILE I FINISH THIS