i wonder why

i bother...................

i mean....... i dont even really know her........, we arent even friends if u ask me....... i was like super bummed after i had a talk with Trey ..... i mean... come on.......... I dont even really fucking know her!..........

so i called zhicong........... even though i tell myself some 91 times i should just leave it....... i was still abit emo....... and hurt.... i felt small... because i always smile at her when i see her.....
and zhicong is the only guy person i know "connected" to her......
zhicong said he dont know...... and that it could be a misunderstanding...........

i looked to pea for some "sharing"........ pea said she's just Jealous.....
thing is, jealous?!?!! of what!!
i am in no way related to her!!......... or involved in her life/ friends...

********************** after awhile i realised i was just blowing and wowing the whole dam thing...
i dont want to be irritated or bothered by it!! i can be perfectly misunderstood .............. i dont give a fuck......... let it be.... i have to repeat this again, " i dont even really fucking know her"....... what for throw myself in the shits

i will be happy, tell u what! im gonna be very happy............... suck it up and keep smiling!! i am true to myself............. lets all get real.......
Be true!! be fucking true to yourself!! YAH